tired of trying

So I am extremely tired of trying to live up to someone else's expectations. All my life I have tried to be perfect for other people, I have hidden who I really am from everyone who knows me.

I feel like I have been walking on egg shells with the people who are closest to me. And I felt I had to get away from the life I lead. Even my own family judged every move I made and it was time to get out.

So here I am 3000 miles away and finally coming out of the shell I have been living in for 21 years, doing my own thing and living my own life without the restrictions of the people that "love" me. Yes I believe they don't do and say the things to be malicious, but it is so stressful trying to live up to what they wanted me to be. So finally out of my shell... And still from all the way across the country they are trying to control how I live.

I am 22 years old, and trying to brave the world that I was so sheltered from all my life, and it is still so hard because I have people judging me from so far away.

They need to get their own life and let me live mine the way I want to live it. I know the risks I take and am clearly willing to take them on my own!