Breaking up

why does breaking up have to be "awkward"? it happens and its ok. you were friends before right so why can't you be friends after? yes there were those different feelings but it is still someone you cared about before you were together, while you were together and even after you break up. there might be that period after the break up where its a little hard because you want to be the people you were when you were together, but eventually you realize that you can't do those things anymore and you get over it.

When we were together, at the end of a long night of drinking he would come cuddle up to me and i would tickle the back of his neck and he would fall asleep on me. I came to expect that to be how the night ended. well a couple nights after the break up, we were at a friends house drinking having a good time. as the night was dying down he was sitting across the room being picked on and harassed by all his friends like usual, and even though it had gone through that we were not together anymore i still wanted to go over there and just tickle the back of his neck and let him fall asleep on me. but i also realized that wasnt going to happen anymore. it wasn't awkward for me it was just reality.

for me the 2 weeks we spent away from each other after was just what i needed. it gave me the time to get over what i needed to get over. and when i walked in and saw him for the first time when i got back it was no where near uncomfortable for me, so why did he have to make i"awkward" for him. we didn't speak, which wasn't anything different from when we were together.

i feel like when you break up with someone there will be that short period after that might be uncomfortable, but then you take the time to move on. for me moving on doesn't mean i dont think about him a lot, doesnt mean i dont want him to be happy, doesn't mean i dont care about him anymore, it means that i care about him in a different way and i have come to terms with the break up. yes we know each other in a different way then i know the other male friends in my life, but it doesnt mean that we cant go back to being the friends we were before. it doesnt mean we have to go our seperate ways and our friends have to choose who they want to spend time with today, or tomorrow. we can be civil!

there is not one guy that i have dated that i am not friends with now. they know me so well and therefore they are the ones who can be there the next time you get your heart broken because they just might be able to be the friend that can make you feel better.

everyone will get hurt at some point in their life, you cant be afraid to know the people you have been with. i have love and lost, but i know i will love again.